02 January 2023


Rethinking Burnout

What a way to start 2023.

I’m burnt out. already.

Sure, some may say - “you likely have bronchitis, chill out a bit. give yourself time to recover.”

Unfortunately, that’s not how my brain works. I’m constantly striving to be productive. And while that may seem like a humble brag, it’s really not - and times like today is the visualization of the downside.

I’m writing this at 12:43pm on 1/2/23 - the new year. I’ve spent the last week under the weather from some respitory illness and instead of babying it, I’ve pushed myself to be productive. And if I had just given myself two days of good, uninterrupted rest - I’d probably be better.

But my brain doesn’t work that way.

I was resigned to submitting to this unfulfilling pursuit of productivity until I saw this video about burnout by Van Neistat.

This is the part of the marathon where you gotta swallow your pride … and walk. Slow down but don’t stop.

This was the perfect “thread the needle” view of the world my brain needed. You can be productive and recover from sickness - just slow down a bit, swallow your pride and … just walk.

So that’s what I’m doing. Writing this entry makes me feel productive. I’m going to continue to code today but be okay with a fraction of my regular output. All while sitting on the couch next to a box of tissues.

I’m walking for a little bit.