Burnout

What a way to start 2023.

I'm burnt out. already.

Sure, some may say - "you likely have bronchitis, chill out a bit. give yourself time to recover."

Unfortunately, that's not how my brain works. I'm constantly striving to be productive. And while that may seem like a humble brag, it's really not - and times like today is the visualization of the downside.

I'm writing this at 12:43pm on 1/2/23 - the new year. I've spent the last week under the weather from some respitory illness and instead of babying it, I've pushed myself to be productive. And if I had just given myself two days of good, uninterrupted rest - I'd probably be better.

But my brain doesn't work that way.

I was resigned to submitting to this unfulfilling pursuit of productivity until I saw this video about burnout by Van Neistat.

This is the part of the marathon where you gotta swallow your pride ... and walk. Slow down but don't stop.

This was the perfect "thread the needle" view of the world my brain needed. You can be productive and recover from sickness - just slow down a bit, swallow your pride and ... just walk.

So that's what I'm doing. Writing this entry makes me feel productive. I'm going to continue to code today but be okay with a fraction of my regular output. All while sitting on the couch next to a box of tissues.

I'm walking for a little bit.